slowly rebuilding
things are coming into place…Praise His Holy Name.
Jeremiah
Everyday I’m reminded of my weaknesses and failure. But I’ve learned from Jeremiah to not complain. Even though I am worthless, the words I speak are worthy because they come from Christ. Spread the Gospel, Preach the Word.
it’s all about…
His timing. It just makes perfect sense. After reading Ecclesiastes again, I see that I need to just shut up and let up. Only thing I need to do is get on my knees and pray.
Updates
So I guess this is how my Life’s pie chart looks like:
1. God
2. Family
3. Ministry
4. School
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In depth:
1. God
Here lies my spiritual disciplines with Prayer, Scripture Reading, and Accountability.
2. Family
Here lies my parents and my immediate family
3. Ministry
Youth Ministry
College Ministry
Young-Adult Ministry
Basically the ministries I have been a part of or are currently a part of. In these ministries I hope to somehow bring the culture of discipleship into focus.
4. School
Here lies seminary and all that entails with being a PhD student.
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Time itself is precious. Time Allocation is a must.
My pie chart is also how I view or prioritize my time. Some would differ from my list but few would change God at the top. I hope you keep Him up there too!
simplicity
Large Scale
Christ. Cross. Gospel. Discipleship. Community. Church.
Personal Scale
Christ. Prayer. Devotions in Scripture. Accountability. Small Groups.
Either way, it still starts with Christ.
Like a machine gun
…except this aint no preacher. Sin reaches deep, hell is deeper, but His love is the deepest. I wish I had an answer for each of Sin’s jabs, many times I just give up and hit the mat.
I had a determination once, long time ago. Nowadays I’m too caught up with school work but I know that’s no excuse. For those all around that I did teach it seems they followed the straight only to hit the curve.
A machine gun itself cannot operate without its parts, much like anything else. The bullets must be inserted through a clip, into the chamber, pull back the hammer, unleash the trigger and then bang. In the same way sin builds upon another until you’re in too deep.
How does the healing process begin? I hear His voice say, “Come and I’ll show you.” Lord I wish I was where I needed to be but I’m not. I don’t want to collapse, revive this poor heart of mine. I dont need a revival, I need a reformation.
So…
They say its the highest call…but sometimes it feels like the highest fall. One prepares and prepares for ministry, only to have sin bring him to the lowest point. How can a call be so uplifting and discouraging?
One thing I have been struggling to do is just be concerned with what I can control. If I cannot control something than I should not waste time on it. Letting go of what I know and holding on to the One who knows what’s best for me. This applies to everything…basketball, working out, weight, sin, lust, desires, preaching, teaching, and life. Too many times I find myself being interested in something else other than the gospel. Too many times I stray from the One who reconciled and saved me. He actually saved me from the wrath of His Father and not necessarily sin itself. God is not bound by sin or death. So by Christ I am free…and yet I live miserably. Because I refuse to accept the freedom He has given me, but I accept what sin has offered me. Sad. But happy. I know He succeeded…I know He won. Therefore I keep pushing forward…towards the goal…towards Him. I will not lose focus, I will not lost heart, I will not lose Hope. Because He is. Because He is.
